Since I was child, faith has been a part of my life. Either an abundance of, a questioning of, or a lack of, faith in God and what is above all else has been on mind.
I continue to take a deep look inside myself and in faith around me. From others, I learn from their journeys, certainties, and uncertainties. I am continually amazed at how my mind can be so set in one way and then shift to new thinking and questions.
At times I am so grounded in my faith, nothing could shake it. And at others, I am so uncertain. I long to just know.
This curiosity has led me to read and study. I find excitement and knowing, then disappointment and unanswered questions.
I know I am not alone in this wavering. Back and forth, round and round. Just when I feel so set, the wind blows, and I am left once again searching. I am hungry for answers and relish in the ability to think about possibilities.
As the days pass and I become more aware, I find myself wondering what I will feel and know in a year or ten. I look forward to the unveiling and ultimately hope in the face of the day to day struggles that surround us all, the knowing will become clear and in peace I will live and rest.